My Travel Update 2019
Many of you followers has asking me why I don’t travel so much this year as I did last year or why I haven’t even been anywhere during this summer of 2019. There are actually a lot of explanations for that and to all of you who are curious about my travel life and what I do, I will now answer your questions in this blog post 🙂
My Travel Update 2019
To start with, I chose to travel full time last year even though I wasn’t feeling well. Since I love to travel and that is actually what makes me happy, I chose to travel away to feel better. That was exactly what I needed, however, everything was rushed here and there to see as much as possible at every place, which wasn’t what I needed.
I am a person who loves to discover countries and cities and like to see and do everything you “need” to. I really want to be able to tick off things that I wanted to see and do and that can also emerge as alternatives during my journey. For each trip I made privately, I booked only a few nights in advance to see if I liked the place or not. In my condition, that wasn’t a good idea, something I realized after all the trips. To travel that much as I did last year was really the best thing I have done but to go here and there in every place that I did, instead of being at one place, beach or city, made me more and more stressed, that not knowing where I would stay the next days. That is something that is very different to me as a person who always wants to have structure and order in life and want to know where to stay for two weeks ahead. Living like this was a challenge I wanted to take on and try out, but which I later realized didn’t suit me as a person, never has and will probably never do.
I am a person who loves to travel but it can also be too much of the it. (I know, luxury problems!) It became too much to bustle around on trips and no time to stay calm at one place. I am used to living in a suitcase for many years when I worked as a cabin crew, but I still had a home I could come home to. I had rented out my home in Stockholm last year and thus had no safe point to come home to, the few days I was home last year, which were not many. I don’t complain but all this bustle here and there last year meant that I had a New Year’s promise to myself this year, to travel less (yes you heard right!) and invest my business in consulting within the travel industry instead. So far this year I have only traveled to Bali and been there for almost a month. This summer I chose to stay at home in Stockholm and experience the Stockholm archipelago and other gems Stockholm offer during the summer. My God what Stockholm is beautiful during summer time! 🙂
I know I will have to travel away this winter because when it is worst here, that is when I need the sun and collect new energy. This year I have deliberately chosen to invest in few trips that I enjoy instead of bustling around. I’ve said no thanks to several trips this year, partly because my body has not been able to cope, and partly because I now have my dog I want to spend time with and that I barely got to know after I got her last year because I traveled so much. But then we also have this with Instagram. ANXIETY.
I prefer blogging about my travels than posting a picture here and there on instagram just to get likes. All this year I have had this anxiety every day and therefore chose to take a break from instagram even though I have an incredible amount of pictures and videos to show you from my travels I did, which I have not even had to go through from my travels last year. Nor have I managed to blog about them due to all assignments and jobs have been priority. I don’t blog during my travels, I do it only when I get home, thats how I always chosen to do because I want to enjoy my stay or the moment I am at. I admit, it got too much travels and I simply couldn’t blog about everything I wanted. My body had no energy to do that. In addition, I feel that the photos I post on instagram must always be perfect and be in symmetry with my entire flow.
I find that today all photos must be perfectly edited and there are so many requirements and achievements that I finally feel that my photos are not good or nice to look at as other travel bloggers are. I know, I compare myself with other people’s photos and I put high demands on myself but when it comes to work I also want to deliver 100% to the customer. Nowadays, there has to be a well thought out flow for my profile to even be interesting, or am I wrong? Do I put too high demands on myself instead of just posting the picture I want and feel, regardless of whether one picture is from Abu Dhabi and the other from Mexico?
Then we have this with caption text, that there must always be a text to the photo for it to be interesting to even like. I feel completely positioned there, have to think of something and when my brain doesn’t really keep up with the way it did before, then there is instead chaos in my brain and thus no picture is posted and I feel anxiety for it. I get anxious for not posting anything, because I should, as a travel blogger, that’s how I feel every day. Strange huh? It is still through instagram I got several assignments last year and this year so I would like to continue performing and get even more assignments because I think this is so much fun, I really do 🙂 Of course, I will continue to travel and in the future I will say yes to several trips and job assignments when requested, but quite frankly I have needed this time to just be and breath. With that said, I will not stop traveling (sorry Aningslösa influencers and Greta Tunberg!) But I will make more thoughtful trips instead in the future 🙂 Hence I need a partner who can stop me in everything I want to do when I travel 😉 Does this make any sense? Although it doesn’t, I have chosen to try out this way this year and let’s see how my body feels, but now you know why I’m not as active on Instagram as before to all of you who wondered 🙂